Dear Friends in the Search for Bianca,

I'm primarily sending this newsletter to those on the list who haven't had the chance to check the website over the past eight or nine days. The developments have been turbulent and astonishing to say the least. I have gone from feelings of anger and hurt to a feeling of power that I haven't had in three years. Be they positive or negative, it is impossible for Claudia to have neutral feelings toward me, that's for sure. I don't know what discovery drove her over the edge, but I am suspicious that someone at Nectar Entertainment in California spilled the beans (although that doesn't necessarily mean their attitude toward me is negative).

I'm sure the extreme reactions Claudia made were her own making. They are so extreme and so futile they would make for outrageous comedy if they weren't so tragic. The two pages she pulled are her escort listing on Contatos and her Orkut profile. I had first visited both pages between ten days and two weeks before she pulled them down. In the the case of her Contatos listing, she had undoubtedly spent a nice chunk of money as recently as April on one of the most awesome photo sessions of her career, and now all of it is gone. In the case of her Orkut listing, her entire network of fans and friends, undoubtedly built over years, has been permanently trashed, and if she ever puts it back up, she has to start again from scratch. All this she did in an effort to prevent me from ever contacting her directly, which any mature person knows is the one thing that MUST happen.

I'll let the rest of the entries from the web site speak for themselves. The bulk of my efforts now are going to be directed at finding a personal friend of Claudia's, either through the Brazilian porn scene section of Orkut or elsewhere, who still has access to her even though she is confining her life to a cave. Hopefully, I can find someone willing to talk to her about the whole situation as a trusted friend and help her realize that she has to eventually face me and stop destroying her life and her career.

Finally, I want to mention that I have greatly expanded, improved, and updated the "100 Percent Positive ID Match" (Bianca - Claudia Bella) page and added some photos. It's worth checking out:
http://www.voltabianca.info/positive_ID_match.html

Thanks as always for your interest and support.

Jeff

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7/19/07: Claudia... sweet dove. I apologize for the accusatory nature of my open letter of July 16th which appears below. I am human. I was angry and hurt. For three years of my life, my number one goal had been to find you and restore our friendship. I spent $7,000 and went through more than you can imagine. I've lost so much. It's hard. It's just so hard...

Please, I want you to forget about all this current turmoil. I want you to think back to the days at the club when you first met me. Think back to your initial impressions and intuitions toward me. Think back to the second private dance you performed and how compelled you were to hug me afterwards, not just once, but twice. Those impressions and intuitions are the truth about who I am and my role in your life, not what's happening now. Please, focus on that truth. I love you.


7/18/07: I discovered this afternoon that Claudia also removed her Orkut profile. Everything, network and all, gone. This is so tragic. I never intended this. I'm getting very concerned about her. I ask any mature, trusted friend with face to face access to PLEASE sit down with Claudia and talk about this situation before she confines her life to a cave. And please contact me and let me know that you have or you will. Claudia... sweet dove... I love you... I love you.


Dear Claudia,

It was never my intention to use my public web site to communicate this private, personal message to you. In fact, it wasn't even my intention to call your cell phone number at this point in time, which I did twice on Saturday. I was working toward a trip to Rio where I had hoped to see you in person. I wanted to have someone arrange a surprise meeting between the two of us where we could finally spend some time together, get all of this out in the open, and hopefully walk away with our love and friendship restored.

But on Friday night, July 13th, I made a discovery. You had taken down your escort listing on the Contatos web site, a listing designed to enhance your ability to earn a living. But as the photo at the top of this page indicates, I was already aware of your escort listing for almost two weeks, in fact, before you decided to take it down. Furthermore, I was also in possession of your cell phone number, not only through this page, but through an additional source that came my way during the final days of June.

This is the first time I have admitted my knowledge of this in public. Previously, I had kept my awareness of your escort business and cell phone number to a tight circle of trusted contacts who have been following this search. Therefore, your effort to take down your escort listing has been nothing but a waste of time that has cost you potential business. Also, a long time friend of mine with a telecommunications background has begun an investigation into your number in an effort to determine just exactly what you intend to do with it. By the time you read this, he is likely to have completed his research. So don't even think about trying to thwart his efforts. Again, it will be a waste of your time.

Nevertheless, when I discovered you had removed your listing, it - quite frankly - freaked me out. It hurt my feelings and made me feel like a criminal. The whole reason I've endured this three year search, spending $7,000 U.S., over 80 percent of my "free" time over the past six months, and crying a bucket of tears, is because I love you, I care about you, and I want to be there to help you in any way I can for the rest of my life.

Normally, I am a very independent person who minds his own business. But when someone I love disappears, especially when it looks like I may be part of the reason, I am going to go looking for them. You should have known that and expected it.

In one of our conversations at the club, you told me you would like to be married some day. But marriage is about love and commitment. It's not about new sexual thrills or keeping someone in your life for only as long as they serve your pleasure. It's about caring enough to stand by someone through their difficult times, and accepting their expressions of love and appreciation even if you don't understand their perspective at the moment. Unfortunately Claudia, you are still a long way from having the ability to care about anyone in such a profound fashion. I now know from bitter experience that your love and affection is a kilometer wide, but a centimeter deep, with the life expectancy of a mosquito. And I say this very regretfully, as someone who does love you more than you will ever know or understand, who shares much of your talent and creativity, and has sacrificed more of his life for you than I will ever care to admit. As beautiful as you are and as wonderful as your companionship is, I challenge you to find any man, in this life or a hundred lives, who will endure for you what I have over the past three years.

In light of the fact that you have pulled your escort listing from Contatos, and in light of the fact that I have once again, been cut off from any ability to communicate with you directly and privately, my plea to you is this: for once in your life, find the courage and DO THE RIGHT THING:

CONTACT ME AND CONFRONT ME DIRECTLY!

Stop being afraid of me and stop making me look like a criminal. Such tactics not only hurt me deeply but also draw the attention of thuggish people looking for an excuse to start trouble. Whether or not you realize it, it threatens my own safety. Stop hiding behind multiple layers of identity, which is unprecedented even in adult entertainment. Start taking responsibility for your life and stand behind the decisions you have made. Stop pulling down web pages and turning off cell phone numbers that were designed to help you earn a living. It is childish, it is selfish, and it does nothing but breed more antagonism.

I AM basically a hedonist. I believe life SHOULD be about pleasure. If I were not, it is unlikely we would have ever met. But we are also here to learn from each other, to help each other, and to find out what love really is. And sooner or later there comes a time when you have to confront a problem head on and come clean with someone, no matter how much it gives you stage fright or makes your knees knock. If you don't, the problem will continue to fester until it destroys you or someone else. Three years of this agony is enough! I have no intention to harm you. So STOP this insanity and contact me now!

If you refuse to do so, then I have no choice but to keep this message in place on this public web page for as long as it needs to be. And I assure you that Google WILL crawl it. Every time someone puts "Claudia Bella" into a search engine, they will not only find links to the dp's and facials. They will also see how you treated someone who tried to love you from his heart - someone who also believed that you were very fond of him. You should have never lost faith in your initial instincts toward me. My initial instincts toward people have never lied to me, and your abilities in this realm are even stronger and more accurate than my own.

The ball is now in your court. What are you going to do with it? Run away and play more identity games? Live your life in the same rut and make the same mistakes over and over again? Or will you do the right thing - the ethical thing - the merciful thing? The choice is yours.

With my deepest love,
Jeff